As much as i want to move on, i can't. I just have to accept it.

Yes, we all do want to move on from our bad love life. But as much as all of us want that, we just can't. We're still deeply in love. Just gotta accept that.

I'm still freaking stuck in this situation. Feeling real down and all while i'm pretty sure he's out there sleeping around with other people. But yet, the feelings just wouldn't go away.

I just have to keep on saying this to myself. "He's just not into me."

So anws, i did a slight research as i couldn't sleep which i'm supposed to by now.. So i asked around. "How do i get over someone that i love.?" The answers that different people gave was quite amazing tho.

There's the sweet guy - "I've went through that b4. It will take time to get over him and you have to move on."

There's the sweet yet trying to show that he's cool guy - "Simple. You can't."

There's the heartless always horny guy - "You have to learn to be heartless."

Then there's me - "You can't get over him unless you're in love with another person." And i think that yeah. I actually helped myself to that question. Well, it is the fact. There's no other way to get over someone you love.

This is really driving me crazzzyyy..!! 'YOU' are the reason for my sleepless nights.. Arrggghh.! How much more complicated can this life of mine get.?! Stupid sh*t.!

And today i'm really pissed off. Especially to those guys who just wanna get into my pants. LET ME GIVE YOU A HINT: YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO ENTER UNLESS I LIKE YOU.! GET IT?? It's like you guys just don't understand when i said i don't want to. Arggh. Dumb guys.. I just realized that there's actually alot.. I MEAN ALOOOTT of horny guys out there.. If you're thinking for a clean fun sex with me, don't even think of adding me anywhere(facebook,msn,watever places).. That is for now tho.. HAH.! Coz i dunno what i'll be like in the future. That famous line is right: "people change."

And to 'you': I'm glad that i didn't gave you my all. Or else i think i would be pretty much crazy by now. But i do miss spending time with you. Badly. Like the past few weeks. But after halloween, it just su*k.! Big time. I think we both had different mind set. I thought.... You thought.. Actually i still dunno what you thought but i have a feeling i know what u thought.. So anws, i do want things to be like normal again.. At least when it's normal, i do get to spend time with you. :D But right now, i just have to get over you. Question is, how.?? Wait. Didn't i just answered that above.?

Shit. I got work in like 1hr 30mins. I haven't even slept. And i'm sooo lazy to work.. can i not.? And just go to sleep.?

I was thinking.. Why do i keep on emo-ing.? Post after post. Sadness after sadness.. Gosh.! It's kinda boring..

And i figured, why do i have to always be sad.? I mean like. It's not wrong to be sad when you've been hurt. But life has to move on. Yeah.. It has to.. So cheer up andreas.! :D

Well, it sounds pretty is it doesn't it.? And truth is, IT'S NOT.! arggh.! hahah. But you know.. I still do wanna be happy.. So we'll just let everything falls into place..

i kept on thinking bout you.. :(

He's just not that into me..

2day has been a day when i stayed in my room the whole day just lying down. Getting something to drink then back to lying down. Probably still upset and heartbroken. Oh well. Bad things do happen. I just need to tell myself that.

I really can't find a way to NOT think of him.. He f*cking hurt me..

I should have ran away when i could. Especially the day when he kept on blabbering about he and he's memories.. It is obvious that he wants to go back to "him" even tho "he" hurt him.. Well, this is what happens if you're in love. Even if that person hurts you, you will still love him/her..

"You were hurt when 'he' did something bad. You know how painful it feels rite? Now you did it to me.."

I can't wake up without you on my mind.. It just feels wrong.. Too dramatic i am..
Did i make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?
Should have known you would bring my heartache...

You've hurt me uncountable times yet i'm being so stubborn to actually fall for you. It's not that i wanted this to happen. It just so happens.. Like all my other crushes that i've had. I didn't choose this. It just so happens... I really do wanna spend more time with you. Even if it means you drunk and asleep on my lap like before. That was the day when i actually realize that i'm falling for you. And i bet you don't even remember that day...